I began a practice of my sexual evolution that involves touch without sexual intent with the intention of balancing out the mental and physiological urges I feel. I've been inundated with sexual touch, I'm ready to explore more. Touch is healthy. Touch is good. This is my practice of boundaries that will allow me to [...]
Authentic Relating
Being in a state of authenticity in the club and being responsible for my feelings, and my feelings alone, has allowed me to remove the shackles of shame even further. I’m sinking into a place where pleasure is allowed to exist without guilt and worry that someone else will disapprove. Witnessing myself play and be [...]
Healing My Inner Masculine Part 2
Looking at all my relationships up until this point in my life, I’m left recognizing patterns and seeing where I’ve made dramatic shifts when new people come into my life. I see the work I’ve been doing, but how is this moment any different than the past? I feel like my life is more full [...]
Healing My Inner Masculine Part 1
Healing men wounds... Healing my inner masculine... Do not look outside of yourself to heal the masculine. Look at your wounded little girl. Where does she hurt. She was separated from her father at a young age. She returned to him during a time of confusion. He was absent to her pain and had to [...]
Freedom
It’s so wild going back and reading my old blogs and seeing how much I’ve changed. Knowing where I was mentally in that moment writing those words; living in a wavering place of comparison, fear, and confusion. I’m so grateful for the process I’ve gone through to bring me to this very moment of clarity [...]
Edging
This constant push and pull of tuning into my internal sensations as I navigate the unexplained. Traveling on the edge of the unknown is fearful and exhilarating. The benefit of pleasure outweighs the risk involved. Flowing to the edge, spilling over. The crash hurts more than the idea of crashing. The eternal walk of suffering. [...]
She Was a Vampire
She’s lives as a vampire. Controlling her primal urge to consummate every corner she turns. She sees men as objects to satisfy her craving. The sex den curbs her cravings, but still feeds a drive that grows as she is never fully satiated. To satisfy her hunger for orgasm is all she knows. She travels [...]
Purpose is Pleasure
Is it my purpose to awaken others through this realm of sexuality? This has been my experience that I cannot deny because it has been my existence. I have been offering space to men for their healing journeys through my time with them in the clubs. I have offered loving kindness and have found deep [...]
The Grand Reflection
The seeker Always looking Never finding. The answer is In the reflection. Always overlooked. Never seen. The seeker Seeking for the soul Passes by Never stopping To see that The grand reflection Reveals the truth.
Finding Comfort In Pleasure
Dancing has allowed me the space to feel comfortable with my sexuality. Taking this sexuality into the "real" world has not been so easy. The social stigmas and the traditional rules of relationships have shamed me into misunderstanding myself. In the club, I'm able to feel physical, emotional, and mental pleasure, within some law limiting [...]
Ecstatic Soul Stripper 