Is it my purpose to awaken others through this realm of sexuality? This has been my experience that I cannot deny because it has been my existence. I have been offering space to men for their healing journeys through my time with them in the clubs. I have offered loving kindness and have found deep [...]
The Grand Reflection
The seeker Always looking Never finding. The answer is In the reflection. Always overlooked. Never seen. The seeker Seeking for the soul Passes by Never stopping To see that The grand reflection Reveals the truth.
Finding Comfort In Pleasure
Dancing has allowed me the space to feel comfortable with my sexuality. Taking this sexuality into the "real" world has not been so easy. The social stigmas and the traditional rules of relationships have shamed me into misunderstanding myself. In the club, I'm able to feel physical, emotional, and mental pleasure, within some law limiting [...]
The Sexist In Me Is The Sexist In You
For years I have owned the "other's" image of myself that I have created. I'm recognizing more fully how much I actually judge myself. In this conversation with sex and my desire to fully acknowledge my trauma that revolves around it to fully embody a true nurturing human that has tended to her wounds, I [...]
Healing Sexual Trauma
Thirty years into this life and I'm discovering there is always room to grow more. Recognizing that not all wounds are from childhood, but many still stem from there. As I continue this life, healing old wounds, I begin to discover there is one wound yet to be tackled at the root. I've looked at [...]
Cultivating Courage In The Face of Fear
Honoring fear and doing what needs to be done to come out on the other side as a more balanced, compassionate, loving human soul existing on this planet with billions of others. I've heard so many times how courageous I am and I'm choosing to own it. It's like the little person inside of me [...]
Initiation Rites
The moment of initiation... The moment I realized I had to walk through the door to the unknown. The moment I found what I had been seeking all along. The moment the deep knowing came to full realization and my wholesome existence came into play. The moment I knew my life would change forever. It’s [...]
Stepping Out
It's been a year of my commitment to leave the strip club and build a business that supports my lifestyle. As it were, my lifestyle has been shifting into a more eco-friendly, sustainable direction. I desire to live off the land and reduce my consumerism ways, so my business planning has been progressive and comes [...]
The Man I Seek Is Within
I’ve been in unfaithful monogamous relationships for all but a few months out of the 10 years I’ve danced. It’s been a time warp of standing still in some areas in life, while growing in others. The same story has been playing over in the club and with boyfriends. My desires are outside of what [...]
The Mirror
Speaking through the mirror, gazing upon the other's eyes in the reflection becomes the way of communication. This has shown me the way I am, the way I move, the way I interact. This has reinforced the outer world existence as I observe the outer world incessantly. I rebel and choose to look them in [...]
Ecstatic Soul Stripper 