Looking at all my relationships up until this point in my life, I’m left recognizing patterns and seeing where I’ve made dramatic shifts when new people come into my life. I see the work I’ve been doing, but how is this moment any different than the past? I feel like my life is more full [...]
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Freedom
It’s so wild going back and reading my old blogs and seeing how much I’ve changed. Knowing where I was mentally in that moment writing those words; living in a wavering place of comparison, fear, and confusion. I’m so grateful for the process I’ve gone through to bring me to this very moment of clarity [...]
Edging
This constant push and pull of tuning into my internal sensations as I navigate the unexplained. Traveling on the edge of the unknown is fearful and exhilarating. The benefit of pleasure outweighs the risk involved. Flowing to the edge, spilling over. The crash hurts more than the idea of crashing. The eternal walk of suffering. [...]
The Sexist In Me Is The Sexist In You
For years I have owned the "other's" image of myself that I have created. I'm recognizing more fully how much I actually judge myself. In this conversation with sex and my desire to fully acknowledge my trauma that revolves around it to fully embody a true nurturing human that has tended to her wounds, I [...]
Healing Sexual Trauma
Thirty years into this life and I'm discovering there is always room to grow more. Recognizing that not all wounds are from childhood, but many still stem from there. As I continue this life, healing old wounds, I begin to discover there is one wound yet to be tackled at the root. I've looked at [...]
Cultivating Courage In The Face of Fear
Honoring fear and doing what needs to be done to come out on the other side as a more balanced, compassionate, loving human soul existing on this planet with billions of others. I've heard so many times how courageous I am and I'm choosing to own it. It's like the little person inside of me [...]
Initiation Rites
The moment of initiation... The moment I realized I had to walk through the door to the unknown. The moment I found what I had been seeking all along. The moment the deep knowing came to full realization and my wholesome existence came into play. The moment I knew my life would change forever. It’s [...]
The Man I Seek Is Within
I’ve been in unfaithful monogamous relationships for all but a few months out of the 10 years I’ve danced. It’s been a time warp of standing still in some areas in life, while growing in others. The same story has been playing over in the club and with boyfriends. My desires are outside of what [...]
Shame for Sale
All my life, shame has grown around my sexual pleasure. It has compounded in every possible moment until now. I’m 30 and I’m deciding to stop the cycle. I’ve hidden behind it for so long with my expression masked in happiness and confidence. The shame has been this little devil poking my back, and now [...]
Rituals For Resistance
During all these shifts of awareness that I’ve been experiencing lately, I sometimes find myself locked in space. A space where I hold on tight to something that doesn’t serve me. I sit. I meddle. I ignore what the issue is. I know that I must look at it in order for it to go [...]
Ecstatic Soul Stripper 