For years I have owned the "other's" image of myself that I have created. I'm recognizing more fully how much I actually judge myself. In this conversation with sex and my desire to fully acknowledge my trauma that revolves around it to fully embody a true nurturing human that has tended to her wounds, I [...]
Author: Modern Shakti
I am Goddess of Light and Love empowering others to live the life of their dreams. Through embodying sexuality through the release of shame, guilt and blame we can begin to recognize our beauty, power and abilities that can alter the course of humanity. When we find space to love ourselves, we can begin to revel in the magnificence of our existence.
Healing Sexual Trauma
Thirty years into this life and I'm discovering there is always room to grow more. Recognizing that not all wounds are from childhood, but many still stem from there. As I continue this life, healing old wounds, I begin to discover there is one wound yet to be tackled at the root. I've looked at [...]
Cultivating Courage In The Face of Fear
Honoring fear and doing what needs to be done to come out on the other side as a more balanced, compassionate, loving human soul existing on this planet with billions of others. I've heard so many times how courageous I am and I'm choosing to own it. It's like the little person inside of me [...]
Initiation Rites
The moment of initiation... The moment I realized I had to walk through the door to the unknown. The moment I found what I had been seeking all along. The moment the deep knowing came to full realization and my wholesome existence came into play. The moment I knew my life would change forever. It’s [...]
Stepping Out
It's been a year of my commitment to leave the strip club and build a business that supports my lifestyle. As it were, my lifestyle has been shifting into a more eco-friendly, sustainable direction. I desire to live off the land and reduce my consumerism ways, so my business planning has been progressive and comes [...]
The Man I Seek Is Within
I’ve been in unfaithful monogamous relationships for all but a few months out of the 10 years I’ve danced. It’s been a time warp of standing still in some areas in life, while growing in others. The same story has been playing over in the club and with boyfriends. My desires are outside of what [...]
The Mirror
Speaking through the mirror, gazing upon the other's eyes in the reflection becomes the way of communication. This has shown me the way I am, the way I move, the way I interact. This has reinforced the outer world existence as I observe the outer world incessantly. I rebel and choose to look them in [...]
Shame for Sale
All my life, shame has grown around my sexual pleasure. It has compounded in every possible moment until now. I’m 30 and I’m deciding to stop the cycle. I’ve hidden behind it for so long with my expression masked in happiness and confidence. The shame has been this little devil poking my back, and now [...]
In Transition
Being in this state of transition has prompted many unfoldings of my path. It’s been 10 years since I started dancing. I’m not sure when I decided I was mentally done, but it feels like too long. It’s been a year since I graduated with my BA. It’s been a year since going to Burning [...]
Rituals For Resistance
During all these shifts of awareness that I’ve been experiencing lately, I sometimes find myself locked in space. A space where I hold on tight to something that doesn’t serve me. I sit. I meddle. I ignore what the issue is. I know that I must look at it in order for it to go [...]
Ecstatic Soul Stripper 