Trust

Trust in the flow. Change is upon me. People have been challenging me in ways that are bringing about growth. Although the last time, I was pushed and I allowed it to push me into a state of anxiety. A state of urgency. A state of unrest and discomfort. I recognize what happened and now [...]

Authentic Relating

Being in a state of authenticity in the club and being responsible for my feelings, and my feelings alone, has allowed me to remove the shackles of shame even further. I’m sinking into a place where pleasure is allowed to exist without guilt and worry that someone else will disapprove. Witnessing myself play and be [...]

Edging

This constant push and pull of tuning into my internal sensations as I navigate the unexplained. Traveling on the edge of the unknown is fearful and exhilarating. The benefit of pleasure outweighs the risk involved. Flowing to the edge, spilling over. The crash hurts more than the idea of crashing. The eternal walk of suffering. [...]