Redefining Love

Love used to be all consuming. Chaotic and unpredictable. Pain was inevitable. Heartbreak was common. Love was dependent on the other to return that love. Being in love meant being lost, having fallen so far from myself. Being in love meant losing touch with my wholeness and becoming one with another. Being in love meant … Continue reading Redefining Love

Life is a Dance

Every movement, every action, every pause, is a segment of the whole piece. The choreography is seamlessly woven together, purposefully, whether it is perceived as fluid or disconnected. It is done with passion. Intention. Connecting with my breath as I take each new step. Allowing my eyes to gaze upon another as they participate in … Continue reading Life is a Dance

10 Important Inclinations

Going into dancing, I didn’t know who I was. I thought I knew, but really, I didn’t. I let outside events frustrate me, hurt me, and ultimately change me. Now, every day I focus on being me. The me that I know to be true.  1. Loving and supportive 2. Sensitive/empathetic towards others 3. Compassionate … Continue reading 10 Important Inclinations

Universal Truth

From the age of 9, I can remember being looked at as a sexual creature. I was hit on by older men, assuming I was at least 18. Cat calls bombarded me as I'd walk down the street in my saggy pants and beanie-chosen to avoid the hoots and hollers. When I was 12 years old, I … Continue reading Universal Truth

Healing My Inner Masculine Part 2

Looking at all my relationships up until this point in my life, I’m left recognizing patterns and seeing where I’ve made dramatic shifts when new people come into my life. I see the work I’ve been doing, but how is this moment any different than the past? I feel like my life is more full … Continue reading Healing My Inner Masculine Part 2

Freedom

It’s so wild going back and reading my old blogs and seeing how much I’ve changed. Knowing where I was mentally in that moment writing those words; living in a wavering place of comparison, fear, and confusion. I’m so grateful for the process I’ve gone through to bring me to this very moment of clarity … Continue reading Freedom

Edging

This constant push and pull of tuning into my internal sensations as I navigate the unexplained. Traveling on the edge of the unknown is fearful and exhilarating. The benefit of pleasure outweighs the risk involved. Flowing to the edge, spilling over. The crash hurts more than the idea of crashing. The eternal walk of suffering. … Continue reading Edging

Initiation Rites

The moment of initiation... The moment I realized I had to walk through the door to the unknown. The moment I found what I had been seeking all along. The moment the deep knowing came to full realization and my wholesome existence came into play. The moment I knew my life would change forever. It’s … Continue reading Initiation Rites

The Man I Seek Is Within

I’ve been in unfaithful monogamous relationships for all but a few months out of the 10 years I’ve danced. It’s been a time warp of standing still in some areas in life, while growing in others. The same story has been playing over in the club and with boyfriends. My desires are outside of what … Continue reading The Man I Seek Is Within