In Los Angeles, the City of Angels lurks a darkness.
A vacancy within the depths of hell.
My heart was racing as I peered around the corner to find a hideous monster of great distortion.
Only after a moment of keeping my eyes wide open, did I realize it was a reflection of myself.
I look that disgusting?!
I was simultaneously bewildered and appalled by the instantaneous transformation.
How could I have let this happen to me?
I’ve been doing all the steps.
My heart pounds as the fear inside of me boils my blood that crawls to the surface of my skin.
I’m not sure if it’s my reflection.
As the creature’s rage builds, I know it’s not.
I’m fumbling around in my mind to remember what my masters have taught me.
Appeasing the monster with words doesn’t seem to work.
I turn around to gather my thoughts.
My empathy rises as I follow my heart back to love in this place of such despair.
Deciding to turn back around, I see that this monster is now simply a lonely little girl.
She looks normal to me now.
Sweet and innocent, but sad and lost.
I see her before the anger swallowed her up; before the pain morphed her into the monster I saw.
I do see myself in this little girl, but she surely isn’t me.
We are on very different paths.
She now wields a mighty sword, this creature.
I slipped into the darkness where the shadows held space and found an opening to sneak away.
As I reclaimed my focus, I said something for the soul of the being inside of the depths of the City of Angels.
I spoke to her shadow of darkness that clouded her existence in anger.
I recited the words of my teacher.
I respect your power.
I then looked at my own demons who came out this evening.
I named fear and sadness and said to each one, “I’m sorry you are feeling this way.
I respect your power.”
I watched the shadows recede into the brightness of the light of recognition.
Acknowledging my respect for the power of these energies has given me freedom.
I am liberated by the burden of containing these shadows within.
I am not responsible for holding them any longer.
I release them into wholeness by respecting and loving them.